Another week of being pregnant, still feeling reasonably well- no major aches and pains, just getting bigger and finding it harder to sit on the floor and play with Richie.
I want to touch on another subject which affected me while RIchie was in hospital- breastfeeding.
Last week was World Breastfeeding Week and seeing all the publicity surrounding this campaign brought up a lot of memories of breastfeeding Richie while he was in NICU and HDU. I just want to say first off that I'm not one of these mothers that thinks breast is best and that formula feeding a baby is a no-go (I think most premmie mums don't really have a choice in this matter when their bub is in hospital), my motto has always been fed is best. And while I would have loved to be able to breastfeed Richie when he was born, it took my body a while to adjust to these new circumstances,
My problem was that I wasn't producing enough milk for my little man (which I think was partly because he was premature and my body wasn't ready to produce lots of milk). Once the hospital staff realised that I wasn't producing enough they sent down the lactation consultants- which I think put more pressure on me to breastfeed, which in turn made me stressed every time I went to feed him. Instead of enjoying this bonding experience with my son, I was more worried about the act of breastfeeding. There came a point about three weeks into Richie's stay in the hospital, where I just broke down in tears due to the pressure of wanting to breastfeed, and one of the nurses said the most memorable things to me- she said, don't stress about breastfeeding, if its meant to be, its meant to be. there is no shame in having a formula fed baby, and then went on to say that her last child was a formula only fed baby and she said that it was a blessing as her husband could help out a lot more with the baby. After this day, I wasn't so hard on myself for not being able to breastfeed my son adequately and tried to dismiss any unwanted pressure from other people about breastfeeding.
So when baby number 2 comes around, I will be better prepared for the pressure of breastfeeding- I will be willing to stick it out for a week or two but ultimately I also have to think about my mental and emotional health, so if it isn't meant to be this time around, I wont be stressing about it.
Anyone else have any breastfeeding stories they wish to share??(good or bad)
My name is Briana and I am a wife to Terry, a mother to ,my gorgeous 2 year old son Richie with another bub on the way.